Minden kezdet nehéz. És a vég?

Mostanában sokat olvasok. Volt időm könyvtárba menni és kivettem egy csomó könyvet. Igen, jól olvastad, könyvet papír alapon; könyvet, aminek szamárfüle van és könyvet, ami tele van régi csoki- és kávéfoltokkal. Egyszóval könyvszagú könyvet. És élveztem, hogy lapozgathatam, és nem kellett félnem, hogy ha túl sokáig merengek egy oldalom, elelszika képernyő és újra kell indítanom. Mert nem is volt képernyő, a zseblámpám pedig fel volt töltve:) A téma, amibe gyakran belebotlottam eléggé megindította a fantáziámat, ám nem a jó értelemben. Megdöbbentő volt olyan dologról olvasni, amit én nem éltem át soha és nem is szeretnék. Megijesztett, hogy mennyire védtelenek vagyunk, amíg nem hisznek nekünk. Megrémített, hogy milyen egyszerű becsukni a szemünket, ha valami olyat látunk, ami nem tetszik. Rettenetes, hogy amiről olvastam, az valószínűleg mind igaz. Az első, amit elolvastam, az a Tabu könyvek közül Beate Teresa Hanikától a 'Soha senkinek' volt. Téma: molesztálás. Vélemény: U

I have finished this year's biggest project and I'm tired. I wanna take a day to sleep or to forget all what is in connection with school. Last week I couldn't sleep; I couldn't eat; I had no time to live or just to have a breath. It was too crowded. I need a few days to go back to school and to the weekdays.... This project is the part of a competition for youth in Hungary. I took part in the 'arts' part of it. If I win I am going to be on velvet at college and it made the things much easier to me. So I'd be happy if I'd be good enough to win. Now at the moment the only thing I can do is to hope. So I trust to it. These days when I was too busy I couldn't talk to my granny and it was the second bad thing. I needed to call her and check how she is and what she's doing to relax and say 'things gonna be alright' and I am soo sorry that I had no time to it. Today I called her and we talked for almost an hour. She's in a really bad

Music. It's the only thing what comes natural from me. I need the U2 to tell you about 2012. 2012 was the best year ever. I was lucky. No; not just lucky. I was the world's luckiest girl. I am the world's luckiest girl. The things could take a turn to the worse but still I feel happy and satisfied with all I did; all I lived through; all I wanted to do. The things what I did for first time this year and I like: ....I flied to Germany. First flying and first time in Germany. I loved the flight and I love Germany, too. There is everything sooo clear and nice....well, almost everything but stop, only the good stories! The camp in Sonnenberg was a perfect week. I got to know so many great people... still I can't play any instruments but doesn't matter, it was good:) I tried speaking in public in English. Yes, that was.... pretty awkward but now I think it was worth......now I'm more valorous or something. It's a different word. Fearlessness.... .